Insidious Weeds

Jesus tells us of the parable of the sower…in the book of Mark chapter 4.  The sower went out to sow.  Some seed falls beside the road and the birds feast upon it.  Some falls on rocky areas and spring up but get no depth so are scorched by the sun.  Other seed landed among thorns that grew up and choked the life out of it.  But the seed that fell on good soil grew and increased to a  great crop.

As a gardener, I just get fed up with weeds and clearing them out.


As a Christian, I get equally fed up with “the insidious weeds” that sprout each day to choke out my joy.  Jesus tells us in Luke 21:34 “Be on guard, that your hearts may not be weighted down with dissipation and drunkenness and the worries of life, and that day come on you suddenly like a trap.”  Did He KNOW us or what?  Every day frustrations and what I generally refer to as “drama” bog us down and make us focus on ‘things’  instead of God’s promise of eternal Hope.  All the ‘things’ we worry about SO much are temporal.  Will any of them matter in 5 years?  10 years?

We take NOTHING with us when we go.  We leave a legacy behind.  Will it be one of joy and praise to the Creator or of bitterness and regret?  Will people miss our presence or be relieved that we can no longer cause them pain?

I want to be the Light of the World that Jesus asks me to be.  To show the way of Hope for all who are oppressed by depression, sorrow, grief, pain, anger, envy, strife and other afflictions of the soul.  I want to rejoice in His glorious gift of forgiveness and share it with all who will listen and accept.





Puzzles and pieces

 One of my favorite activities is to sit and work on a jigsaw puzzle and watch family gather to work together.  Curiosity, for those who find the task to be difficult, keeps some in the room and the obsessive compulsive need for puzzlers to keep finding pieces retains the rest.


I found a magnificent 3D puzzle recently.  It reminded me of a movie, Miracles From Heaven that I had viewed.  It was the first 3D puzzle I had really attempted and it was difficult to find the correct pieces because the view kept changing, to the extent, that my eyes ached from the effort.  In fact, I got no help at all, instead of gathering one by one family members drifted off, uninterested in the labor required.

I am discovering it to be similar in following the call of Jesus.  The love that He so generously bestowed upon us and asks that we share in the same way is bountiful and glorious but those whom we wish to share with often don’t understand.  They want to receive but not give.  The effort of loving the unloveable makes our hearts ache but the reward is a spectacular picture of everchanging and yet never changing glory.


In the infinity of time  in which God exists, our little period of life is but a dot, yet we struggle over every moment with intensity that creates more chaos than peace.  Letting GO is the HARDEST!  We think we can CONTROL things, events, people and yet we destroy the peaceful joy of the Spirit by grieving Him in acts of unlove.  Kindness in the face of hatred … gentleness in the midst of animosity are a trial to our self worth, but if,  we can remember that the help of the Savior is at our fingertips and we can access it any moment we need  … before pushing the panic button of retaliation  then we can live in the moments of bliss that we so desparately desire.

Like a diver remembers not to shoot to the surface for air we can count on God to be there for us because HE PROMISED that He would.

All believers have a story that ends in…but God.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  2 Corinthians 12:9

Forgiveness & Equality

  • IMAG0336 what do we see when we look at others?

    Are we able to view the pain, scars, or experience each one carries along with them?  Much like the chain that Charles Dickens describes of Marley???    chains  Each day we have the choice to forgive or not the offenses of others.  It IS HARD but we are called by Jesus to forgive as the Father forgives.  We find we are able to forgive ‘our little select groups’ but those who offend us the most .. ie.  someone who hurts our children or seeks to harm us ..fall into a “different catagory”.

  • God sent HIS SON, who we the human race harmed (to death), yet we are given the ultimate forgiveness and possiblity of eternal life in return for our disrespect.

Yes, God chose a certain people and favored them until the day of  this miraculous event; however, afterward “the door” was opened to EVERYONE. Not if a list of rules is followed, but only if we BELIEVE that it is possible and accept it.

Then we turn and ‘shake-down’ our neighbor ( fellow human) if he doesn’t meet the expectations that we have set out.

Does this mean that we accept all ideas, theologies, radical concepts as truth?   NO, Heaven forbid.  Jesus sacrificed freely for us to understand the TRUTH.

But it does mean that we are called to be kind, patient, and forebearing to  our fellow man  until he is able to ‘open his eyes’.  Martin Luther King had ‘a dream’ and so did Joseph before his brothers threw him in a pit and sold him as a slave. But as Joseph discovered and declared, ” you meant it for harm but God has used it for good.

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The long road

I know God is working for my good and for the good of all those who believe on His Name.

Faith comes as we ask God for it and He spoon feeds us until we can handle ‘adult’ proportions and textures.

1There is therefore now no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus. 2For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus made me free from the law of sin and of death. 3For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God, sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh: 4that the ordinance of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. 5For they that are after the flesh mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit. 6For the mind of the flesh is death; but the mind of the Spirit is life and peace: 7because the mind of the flesh is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can it be: 8and they that are in the flesh cannot please God.

Don’t Kill the Messenger

How often do we reject the teaching of God because we choose NOT to hear?

DSC_4274we cannot seem to listen!!

Unfortunately, we struggle with the frustration of the consequences.

My Garmin says,”recalculating, recalculating, recalculating”  I wonder does God or His angels have the same reverberating commentary going on while I wriggle like a specimen bug under His pin?  I read the Word and pray for understanding but REAL LIFE gets in the way!!

God sent prophets to the kings of old and sent HIS SON to us.  He PAID and all we need to do is BELIEVE that HE PAID.

He asks us to LOVE ONE ANOTHER just like He loved us and to give to each other just as HE DID.  Judas came to betray Him with a kiss as a sign.  Jesus KNEW this was to happen but He didn’t attack or run.  He prayed for God to provide an easier way if possible but none came and He walked into God’s Will fully conscience of the danger ahead because this life is not what matters for eternity.   Infinity

I cannot fathom eternity.  Sometimes, I can’t even grasp tomorrow because I’m so mired in my problem NOW.  More often than not, though, I’m stuck in yesterday or dreaming of tomorrow’s promise of change and not really living fully.


God Grant ME the Joy of Accepting Your Will and the Promise that you are working all things for my good as I BELIEVE in YOU.


I am soo sorry that I have been absent for so long.  I did not realize until seeing the note ” its been 2 months since The Detritus… was posted”.

I am sure that others have the same problems that I face when trying to juggle schedules; such as: home, work, children, sports, bible study, and yes, even relaxation.

Addiction and depression take NO HOLIDAYS nor vacations, well unless you count the vacations we plan and are sucked into the never ending cycle, leaving us feeling deflated and dejected instead of empowered.

I recently received some excellent advise from a friend and fellow sufferer of PROBLEMS that gave me answers that encouraged me to take a fresh look at evaluation of solutions.

Time heals ALL wounds –truly it does!!  Unless, we pick at them and reopen them and dance around the”elephant in the room”, then we have created our own living HELL or prison, if you prefer.  We are enveloped in a cloud of doubt and dispair that is inescapable because it is our “bubble” that we have enclosed around us.

God DOES NOT seek this for us, nor does he request that we control others in our circles.  Instead, He gently reminds us that He has it ALL under control and it will work in HIS TIME.

I encourage you to follow the path that I have chosen:  To stay in HIS WILL and allow Him the opportunity to make something beautiful from the ashes that I have caused while trying to circumvent the chaos that I created.

I want to REJOICE in ALL THINGS.    Peace is what I wish for you, me, all.

The Detritis of our Lives

Yes, my children claim that I play in the dictionary.  My vocabulary is wide but sometimes I find it completely necessary to actually look up the meaning of a word.

  1. waste or debris of any kind.
    “streets filled with rubble and detritus”
    synonyms: debris, waste, refuse, rubbish, litter, scrap, flotsam and jetsam, rubble
  2. gravel, sand, silt, or other material produced by erosion.
  3. organic matter produced by the decomposition of organisms

20160422_074358In case you have no frame of reference, I live on a dirt road.  Rain erodes the surface causing trenches and ruts but also it brings items to the surface that are buried, sometimes so deeply they are beyond imagining.    Fill dirt has been brought in and spread on the roadway so that it appears smoother.  The ruts are filled in and the mounds are evened out but that fill has in it a multitude of debris.  Unseen until the rain sifts the sand down and the items upward.

Each day I enjoy a walk and look for the “hidden treasures” that may lie upon the roadway.   God does this in our lives.  If we allow Him, He gently sifts through the items and baggage we carry or hoard in our “secret closets” and will remove the DETRITUS at our request.

  • caged catJesus gently tells us in Matthew 7:7 ” Ask, and it shall be given to you; seek, and you shall find; knock and it will be opened to you.”

    Although, we read this verse and sit through sermon upon sermon , we often pick up our hurts and wants and pain and continue on.  More often than not, shoving the pain down deep so that we won’t have to feel it every day (or this we choose to believe), but ignoring treatment does not REMOVE a disease or a problem.


    I began my collection after my granddaughter tripped one day while scurrying down the roadway.  She cut a huge gash in her knee instead of scraping it.  DIRT doesn’t cut.  So sleuth that I am, I investigated and discovered a large chunk of bottle glass just beneath the surface.  At first my mission was to remove all danger and I did so with fervor, highly agitated at being forced into servitude because of the carelessly buried refuse.  However, as I continue finding items that must have been secreted very deep to take so long to surface, I realize that although they are broken bits and pieces, they are a semblance of our lives.  OUR broken bits and pieces generally irritate us or wound others, but GOD takes those broken pieces and fits them back into beautiful full pictures of joy.


    Of course, it still requires our sacrifice of the brokeness and sometimes we cannot admit that we have faults because we have smoothed the ruts and filed off the edges so we continue hobbling along, blaming others, crippling ourselves and our message.  If you can, I challenge you to SACRIFICE your broken pieces to God and allow Him to bring you PEACE, which has been His plan all along.20160417_092311.jpg

Love is…Sacrifice

Life time of dreams      This phrase has repeated itself again and again to me lately.  If you have reviewed my early writings, you already understand that I only post as I feel “lead to do so”.  This blog belongs to God and I am merely “fingers on the keyboard”.  It is my apostleship and I cannot escape the compelling force, so I submit cheerfully.

Many of my friends know the struggles I face and have been through the past year.  I am so thankful that God has blessed me with them… both the friends and the struggles.  I began my day in prayer to be THE LIGHT of Jesus as I work today.  I want to view people the way that God does, but maybe not.  I am a little afraid of seeing the inner person and the grief, anxiety, sadness, selfishness, greed, etc all the things that Jesus went to the cross to cover.

God made Adam and Eve in HIS IMAGE and called it good but Satan was able to persuade Eve not to believe the promise.  NOT TO TRUST…God sent His Son as emissary to convince us that He still CARES…He sacrificed himself and God allowed it to reclaim what was lost in the Garden.  TRUST!

A friend recently lost someone dear to cancer and is grieving, another just started the process of dealing with this invasive disease and the fear it brings.  Anxiety seems to be the code Word of the times, increasing until we are afraid of being anxiety ridden.  I choose to sacrifice my will, my pain, my fear, and all that I am to God’s will and trust that He knows what tomorrow brings just as He promised.  That ALL is working together for my good even the bad choices that I accidentally make.  Even when I stumble and forget to look to Him for guidance.  9-10-2009-01 (2)

I am learning but just like any sport or other language that I attempt, I NEED A LOT OF PRACTICE.  Practice the piano, or singing, or spanish, or ice skating, or softball, or soccer,  or swimming, or dancing.  I could go on and on but we forget that we are practicing living. And that loving is the hardest thing we can ever do.  It is alive when it cares, when it has time, when it is secure.

“Love is patient, Love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

I have read this passage since I was a teenager and still have not mastered ALL of it. I am still practicing, but now I am beginning to see the REAL truth behind it.  God is a Spirit and like Him this word that He gives us seems to evaporate or become invisible and untouchable.  Unattainable by human standards, but He calls us to use the spirit inside to connect with Him and be able as He is ABLE.

…to be continued