Waiting on God’s Timing

peace How hard it is for human nature to wait on God.  It is a discipline that takes practice.  Impatience in a NOW world is expected and encountered daily.  Those who complain the most or scream the loudest attract attention.

Distractions or as one author put it “spiritual mirages” take our focus of our Bridegroom Jesus Christ and his eternal love for us.  We look to people, places, and things for satisfaction, but these are only NOUNS.  They CANNOT provide the comfort, healing, and peace found in the presence of our Savior.

My worth is seen in His eyes, not in the accomplishments that I will leave behind here on this journey to my new home.  Some seasons feel long and exhausting but His Grace is sufficient to cover if we surrender ourselves, our wishes, our demands to Him.

Thank you Abba, Lord of ALL for sustaining me in all areas of my being. True Love.jpg



TENACITY- a strength or a weakness?

  1. the quality or fact of being able to grip something firmly; grip.
    synonyms: persistence, determination, perseverance, doggedness, strength of purpose, tirelessness, indefatigability, resolution, resoluteness, resolve, firmness, patience, purposefulness, staunchness, steadfastness, staying power, endurance, stamina, stubbornness, intransigence, obstinacy, obduracy, pertinacity

    “she practices her gymnastics routine with the tenacity of a bulldog”
    • the quality or fact of being very determined; determination.
    • the quality or fact of continuing to exist; persistence.
 During any hardship of life, whether physical, mental, or spiritual we practice the shoring up of our own strength but notice the duality of tenacity…it means both stamina and obstinacy.  Today I struggle with the difference.  Am I giving up too early or hanging on too long?  As a wise sage once told me, the details  of the trial are not important because it doesn’t change the facts.  Whatever your soul struggles with is a real danger, a snare to rob us of peace and assurance of hope.

Even If by MercyMe sums up the desperate feelings I have now and we all have when we are travelling through a hard trial.  It hits our soul with anguish and the feeling of total helplessness.

I am praying and searching the scriptures while well meaning friends are offering tempting actions, that may relieve me of the suffering I am enduring; however, time and again I am reminded…

Ps 27:14 Wait for the Lord, be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!

Romans 8: 24  For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?

Galations 2:20  I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I that live, but Christ liveth in me: and that life which I now live in the flesh I live in faith, the faith which is in the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself up for me.

and mostly:

1 Peter 5:7 casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.

I find it easier “said than done”.  Day after day, I bring it before Him but still the tentacles of this mess creep into every occasion to try to steal my JOY.  Like cancer, it remains tenaciously under the surface.. the enemy..ever lurking..waiting for opportunity to rear uptentacles

Thank you, bloggers that produce the encouraging messages warming my heart beyond belief and reaching through the fog in the valley of doubt to lift my spirits in hope once again.

Looking ever to My Lord and Savior.  Praise Him for my delivery.  Only Complete Surrender can bring the comfort of Peace that Sustains the Soul.9-10-2009-17


In a world of desperation, we are called to shine as “the Light”.  1434536915236

I want to stay on the right path as I take my journey through time.  We are finite but God is infinite and so are His blessings.  Mark Chapter 6-9 tell of Jesus’ ministry in providing for needy people.

My desire is to encourage and bring hope to those I encounter.  I have included a link to a project I am working on.  Feel free to help if you feel led to do so but not compelled in any way by me.


I haven’t been on my page in a while as I have been absorbing encouragement from others.  My mind is seeking order for the multitude of things that bombard us daily.  In reality, we only have ONE calling.  To keep our eyes focused on Jesus…He is the Way to the throne room of the Father who created all and gives us blessings whether we acknowledge Him or not.

Solomon, with all his earthly wisdom, says it best in Ecclesiastes.  There is nothing new under the Sun!  We have the choice, as circumstances arise, to focus on the problem or the solution.  We are never separated from God unless we choose to be.  6533261.jpg


The intriguing puzzle of LIFE

I always ask why.  Now I ask why this is important to me.  Ironic as it is, this is my eternal question.  But God, asks me to trust even if I don’t know why.  He comforts me today as I go through one of the darkest tunnels that I must enter.  I like to be an encouragement to others and a light in the darkness around me but I’m human and I don’t want to enter the deep, dark chasm ahead of me.  Being visually oriented, I envision a huge, black hole and God calls me to jump into the darkness.  No space ship, no protection, just trust HIM.

As a young child, I suffered the abuse of a trusted family member.  Growing up, I refused to trust ANYONE.  I could see deceit and betrayal in every situation.jan-1962  But God, once again provided me a refuge in a faithful sister, who shared as much of my pain as I would allow.  I looked for acceptance EVERYWHERE except in MY EVERLOVING FAITHFUL FATHER ABOVE.  Patiently, through all my ventures into rebellion, disobedience, and sin, He gently called me, always promising me peace and love beyond measure.

Oh, I prayed (for my wishes) and wondered WHY I continued to encounter difficulties.   I married much too young and against the advise of my pastor.   I became a parent and responsible for other little souls, who trusted me until I subconsciously passed along my distrust and suspicion.

Even though my husband informed me that he did NOT and would not love me, but only married me because he was told he had to, I stubbornly held to the perfect image and tried to force control and  happiness into the disaster.   After years of struggle and strife, I divorced and  moved 1,000 miles away believing that I could leave my troubles behind me.  O foolish me,  I took ME with me.

Then, I met up with the man I chose to marry.  YES, I prayed (once again for what I wanted) somewhat like “rolling the dice”.  After 10 years, I struggled with components of affection lacking in our life so I went to great length (reversing a tubal ligation) to produce a much desired offspring in order to satisfy his longing… and therefore mine.  Needless to say, life cannot be scripted to what we desire. After 20 years, I discovered that he was maintaining a mistress and that it was a long line of betrayals, I went to great measures to forgive and rebuild what I believed was our life together.   I was no saint.  I suffered hurt, betrayal, anger, rage and other emotions that come when we envision and expect certain behavior and find dissappointment. Now 10 years later, after counseling, despairing, fighting, he continues to try to convince me that I should stay committed as a faithful and devoted wife while he entertains his current mistress and pursues his own brand of happiness.

chainsI was so devastated, but GOD reached down once again and has taken me through a year of healing and teaching.  I learned that HIS WORD contains answers and has allowed me to gain TRUST.  I can SEE a life without pain in the future.  Oh, I still face the black hole because HE calls me to obedience and trust when I can’t see why the situation is happening or where it will take me on the path.  But I no longer “roll the dice”, because “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say of the Lord, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.’ Surely, He will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence.” Psalms 91:1-3. 

His Word guarantees that He has good planned for me and that He will keep me in PERFECT PEACE if my mind is stayed on Him.  So now I pray, THY WILL BE DONE.  As my example, Jesus Christ did, while freely buying my pardon.


I LIVE in joy, peace, loving kindness and choose to continue to do this through MY Savior.  I will not look at the storms or chaos that roil around me but I will use the gifts that God has given me to bless others and PRAISE HIM daily for His blessings on me!


Infinity Did you ever notice that time means NOTHING to God?  He has infinity, so why worry about this minute, hour, day, week, month, year, decade, century?  We DON’T understand this concept as we are ruled by what we can achieve and how long it takes to do so.


We MEASURE EVERYTHING!!   Our joy vs our pain, our level of commitment vs what we hope to receive.   Praise God that He does NOT do this to us.  His level of Grace remains the same regardless!  Even when we “fall off the wagon”, He graciously with loving kindness beckons us to return to the FULLNESS of His Love.  Satan continues to deceive us with lies that we can be ‘like God’ or that ‘we are not good enough’, ‘we’ve gone too FAR to turn back’ and many others.  LIES, LIES, LIES!  Jesus offered both thieves on the cross eternal life with Him.  One received and one didn’t.  ALL we must do is CHOOSE.

Satan knows as God knows our burdens will be lifted and our lives will be joined with God.  Satan desires us to be separated forever, not because of us but because he wants to hurt God who is pained by our decisions to remain separate.  He desires us to be in union with Him eternally and to experience the grief and pain relieving joy of HIS FULLNESS.  Those who are seeking Hope, will find it.  Those who are seeking completeness, will find it. Those who need restoration, will find it.

Jesus calls us….COME HOME!  I will give you rest.


Wherever you are, whatever you’ve done….You are always accepted!  Believe and turn to the Only One who can bring you in complete harmony with God your Creator.


Insidious Weeds

Jesus tells us of the parable of the sower…in the book of Mark chapter 4.  The sower went out to sow.  Some seed falls beside the road and the birds feast upon it.  Some falls on rocky areas and spring up but get no depth so are scorched by the sun.  Other seed landed among thorns that grew up and choked the life out of it.  But the seed that fell on good soil grew and increased to a  great crop.

As a gardener, I just get fed up with weeds and clearing them out.


As a Christian, I get equally fed up with “the insidious weeds” that sprout each day to choke out my joy.  Jesus tells us in Luke 21:34 “Be on guard, that your hearts may not be weighted down with dissipation and drunkenness and the worries of life, and that day come on you suddenly like a trap.”  Did He KNOW us or what?  Every day frustrations and what I generally refer to as “drama” bog us down and make us focus on ‘things’  instead of God’s promise of eternal Hope.  All the ‘things’ we worry about SO much are temporal.  Will any of them matter in 5 years?  10 years?

We take NOTHING with us when we go.  We leave a legacy behind.  Will it be one of joy and praise to the Creator or of bitterness and regret?  Will people miss our presence or be relieved that we can no longer cause them pain?

I want to be the Light of the World that Jesus asks me to be.  To show the way of Hope for all who are oppressed by depression, sorrow, grief, pain, anger, envy, strife and other afflictions of the soul.  I want to rejoice in His glorious gift of forgiveness and share it with all who will listen and accept.





Puzzles and pieces

 One of my favorite activities is to sit and work on a jigsaw puzzle and watch family gather to work together.  Curiosity, for those who find the task to be difficult, keeps some in the room and the obsessive compulsive need for puzzlers to keep finding pieces retains the rest.


I found a magnificent 3D puzzle recently.  It reminded me of a movie, Miracles From Heaven that I had viewed.  It was the first 3D puzzle I had really attempted and it was difficult to find the correct pieces because the view kept changing, to the extent, that my eyes ached from the effort.  In fact, I got no help at all, instead of gathering one by one family members drifted off, uninterested in the labor required.

I am discovering it to be similar in following the call of Jesus.  The love that He so generously bestowed upon us and asks that we share in the same way is bountiful and glorious but those whom we wish to share with often don’t understand.  They want to receive but not give.  The effort of loving the unloveable makes our hearts ache but the reward is a spectacular picture of everchanging and yet never changing glory.


In the infinity of time  in which God exists, our little period of life is but a dot, yet we struggle over every moment with intensity that creates more chaos than peace.  Letting GO is the HARDEST!  We think we can CONTROL things, events, people and yet we destroy the peaceful joy of the Spirit by grieving Him in acts of unlove.  Kindness in the face of hatred … gentleness in the midst of animosity are a trial to our self worth, but if,  we can remember that the help of the Savior is at our fingertips and we can access it any moment we need  … before pushing the panic button of retaliation  then we can live in the moments of bliss that we so desparately desire.

Like a diver remembers not to shoot to the surface for air we can count on God to be there for us because HE PROMISED that He would.

All believers have a story that ends in…but God.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  2 Corinthians 12:9