Desperately Hopeful

Oh Wonderful Readers!!  There are soo many encouraging articles, statements, and affirmations out there to cling to!  I am exhausted at looking at my circumstances or situations.  These are things over which I don’t have control.

 I must face up to my problems and not hide from them.

For many years, I did not look at myself or examine my feelings or what depression was doing to me. I would, in fact, refuse to do so, but I now realize that I must do the exact opposite of this. I have to inspect my negative thoughts and ask myself what I WANT to do and what direction I must take. Just what are motives and where do they come from? Are thoughts trying to control me, dominate me, or coerce me into doing something that will harm me or others? If they are not helping me, then they are not what I want or need and I should reject them but first I must recognize each thought and its dominion. Some thoughts are not there for my own good but are simply put there at my expense to lure me into believing LIES. Equally, I believe (and songs have been written) that we know WHAT we should do but feel weak and unable to overcome the negative thoughts.

PRAISE ADONAI our Lord of Lords, who gives us strength as we ask and believe.  Even belief if we feel weak in our faith.

I am NOT my faults,my virtues, nor my past choices; I can choose my path today!

The Jehovah Shalom does not condemn me.  I now know the truth: the negative thoughts that have dominated my behavior are not who I really am, so I can face these thoughts and call them out as the lies that they are. I can see that they try to control me and to harm me, but I don’t have to let them.

So just as I am not my faults, virtues, or past choices. I am not my depression. What is bringing me down is something from outside that is trying to affect the thoughts and feelings that I have.  God knows that thoughts lead to feelings and feelings to actions, so He calls us to heal our thoughts first.

Depression does not come from within me, so it CANNOT define me.  Understanding this puts depression on the outside and FREES me to think of myself as someone whom Jehovah Raah loves and treasures. 

Depression is temporary; love is permanent.

Depression is a parasite. It feeds from me, leaving me debilitated,  literally unable to move or to respond to others. Love is the opposite of depression: it is selfless. Love feeds me, is always there, and all I must do is reach out for it.  Depression can only survive if I allow it do so.  TRUTH- there is so much beyond depression, my thoughts guide my actions.  I do NOT want to be RULED by my emotions but I want to enjoy LIFE BY RULING my emotions in a positive way.

Love is our is what we were created for.  Not physical love but inner, deeper love.  Truly self sacrificing love.

Some Thoughts contributed by Peter King, PhD

more to come….


Unshakable Peace

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It is crazy to think about my life just one year ago. It seems crazy to grasp the concept of unshakable peace when the world around us is constantly going. I have allowed myself to be consumed by the busyness of the world and just accept it as a way of life. After all, if I am not busy, I am not being productive, right? So I thought.

In just the past six months, after I began praying and reading the Prayer of Jabez my life has never been the same. God has been expanding my territory in every aspect of my life propelling me to live outside my comfort zone and trust in HIM on all fronts. It has been an AMAZING ride and I wake up every day excited to see what I will learn and the miracles that will unfold in my life and in the lives…

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Waiting on God’s Timing

peace How hard it is for human nature to wait on God.  It is a discipline that takes practice.  Impatience in a NOW world is expected and encountered daily.  Those who complain the most or scream the loudest attract attention.

Distractions or as one author put it “spiritual mirages” take our focus of our Bridegroom Jesus Christ and his eternal love for us.  We look to people, places, and things for satisfaction, but these are only NOUNS.  They CANNOT provide the comfort, healing, and peace found in the presence of our Savior.

My worth is seen in His eyes, not in the accomplishments that I will leave behind here on this journey to my new home.  Some seasons feel long and exhausting but His Grace is sufficient to cover if we surrender ourselves, our wishes, our demands to Him.

Thank you Abba, Lord of ALL for sustaining me in all areas of my being. True Love.jpg


TENACITY- a strength or a weakness?

  1. the quality or fact of being able to grip something firmly; grip.
    synonyms: persistence, determination, perseverance, doggedness, strength of purpose, tirelessness, indefatigability, resolution, resoluteness, resolve, firmness, patience, purposefulness, staunchness, steadfastness, staying power, endurance, stamina, stubbornness, intransigence, obstinacy, obduracy, pertinacity

    “she practices her gymnastics routine with the tenacity of a bulldog”
    • the quality or fact of being very determined; determination.
    • the quality or fact of continuing to exist; persistence.
 During any hardship of life, whether physical, mental, or spiritual we practice the shoring up of our own strength but notice the duality of tenacity…it means both stamina and obstinacy.  Today I struggle with the difference.  Am I giving up too early or hanging on too long?  As a wise sage once told me, the details  of the trial are not important because it doesn’t change the facts.  Whatever your soul struggles with is a real danger, a snare to rob us of peace and assurance of hope.

Even If by MercyMe sums up the desperate feelings I have now and we all have when we are travelling through a hard trial.  It hits our soul with anguish and the feeling of total helplessness.

I am praying and searching the scriptures while well meaning friends are offering tempting actions, that may relieve me of the suffering I am enduring; however, time and again I am reminded…

Ps 27:14 Wait for the Lord, be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!

Romans 8: 24  For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?

Galations 2:20  I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I that live, but Christ liveth in me: and that life which I now live in the flesh I live in faith, the faith which is in the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself up for me.

and mostly:

1 Peter 5:7 casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.

I find it easier “said than done”.  Day after day, I bring it before Him but still the tentacles of this mess creep into every occasion to try to steal my JOY.  Like cancer, it remains tenaciously under the surface.. the enemy..ever lurking..waiting for opportunity to rear uptentacles

Thank you, bloggers that produce the encouraging messages warming my heart beyond belief and reaching through the fog in the valley of doubt to lift my spirits in hope once again.

Looking ever to My Lord and Savior.  Praise Him for my delivery.  Only Complete Surrender can bring the comfort of Peace that Sustains the Soul.9-10-2009-17


In a world of desperation, we are called to shine as “the Light”.  1434536915236

I want to stay on the right path as I take my journey through time.  We are finite but God is infinite and so are His blessings.  Mark Chapter 6-9 tell of Jesus’ ministry in providing for needy people.

My desire is to encourage and bring hope to those I encounter.  I have included a link to a project I am working on.  Feel free to help if you feel led to do so but not compelled in any way by me.

I haven’t been on my page in a while as I have been absorbing encouragement from others.  My mind is seeking order for the multitude of things that bombard us daily.  In reality, we only have ONE calling.  To keep our eyes focused on Jesus…He is the Way to the throne room of the Father who created all and gives us blessings whether we acknowledge Him or not.

Solomon, with all his earthly wisdom, says it best in Ecclesiastes.  There is nothing new under the Sun!  We have the choice, as circumstances arise, to focus on the problem or the solution.  We are never separated from God unless we choose to be.  6533261.jpg


The intriguing puzzle of LIFE

I always ask why.  Now I ask why this is important to me.  Ironic as it is, this is my eternal question.  But God, asks me to trust even if I don’t know why.  He comforts me today as I go through one of the darkest tunnels that I must enter.  I like to be an encouragement to others and a light in the darkness around me but I’m human and I don’t want to enter the deep, dark chasm ahead of me.  Being visually oriented, I envision a huge, black hole and God calls me to jump into the darkness.  No space ship, no protection, just trust HIM.

As a young child, I suffered the abuse of a trusted family member.  Growing up, I refused to trust ANYONE.  I could see deceit and betrayal in every situation.jan-1962  But God, once again provided me a refuge in a faithful sister, who shared as much of my pain as I would allow.  I looked for acceptance EVERYWHERE except in MY EVERLOVING FAITHFUL FATHER ABOVE.  Patiently, through all my ventures into rebellion, disobedience, and sin, He gently called me, always promising me peace and love beyond measure.

Oh, I prayed (for my wishes) and wondered WHY I continued to encounter difficulties.   I married much too young and against the advise of my pastor.   I became a parent and responsible for other little souls, who trusted me until I subconsciously passed along my distrust and suspicion.

Even though my husband informed me that he did NOT and would not love me, but only married me because he was told he had to, I stubbornly held to the perfect image and tried to force control and  happiness into the disaster.   After years of struggle and strife, I divorced and  moved 1,000 miles away believing that I could leave my troubles behind me.  O foolish me,  I took ME with me.

Then, I met up with the man I chose to marry.  YES, I prayed (once again for what I wanted) somewhat like “rolling the dice”.  After 10 years, I struggled with components of affection lacking in our life so I went to great length (reversing a tubal ligation) to produce a much desired offspring in order to satisfy his longing… and therefore mine.  Needless to say, life cannot be scripted to what we desire. After 20 years, I discovered that he was maintaining a mistress and that it was a long line of betrayals, I went to great measures to forgive and rebuild what I believed was our life together.   I was no saint.  I suffered hurt, betrayal, anger, rage and other emotions that come when we envision and expect certain behavior and find dissappointment. Now 10 years later, after counseling, despairing, fighting, he continues to try to convince me that I should stay committed as a faithful and devoted wife while he entertains his current mistress and pursues his own brand of happiness.

chainsI was so devastated, but GOD reached down once again and has taken me through a year of healing and teaching.  I learned that HIS WORD contains answers and has allowed me to gain TRUST.  I can SEE a life without pain in the future.  Oh, I still face the black hole because HE calls me to obedience and trust when I can’t see why the situation is happening or where it will take me on the path.  But I no longer “roll the dice”, because “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say of the Lord, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.’ Surely, He will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence.” Psalms 91:1-3. 

His Word guarantees that He has good planned for me and that He will keep me in PERFECT PEACE if my mind is stayed on Him.  So now I pray, THY WILL BE DONE.  As my example, Jesus Christ did, while freely buying my pardon.


I LIVE in joy, peace, loving kindness and choose to continue to do this through MY Savior.  I will not look at the storms or chaos that roil around me but I will use the gifts that God has given me to bless others and PRAISE HIM daily for His blessings on me!


Infinity Did you ever notice that time means NOTHING to God?  He has infinity, so why worry about this minute, hour, day, week, month, year, decade, century?  We DON’T understand this concept as we are ruled by what we can achieve and how long it takes to do so.


We MEASURE EVERYTHING!!   Our joy vs our pain, our level of commitment vs what we hope to receive.   Praise God that He does NOT do this to us.  His level of Grace remains the same regardless!  Even when we “fall off the wagon”, He graciously with loving kindness beckons us to return to the FULLNESS of His Love.  Satan continues to deceive us with lies that we can be ‘like God’ or that ‘we are not good enough’, ‘we’ve gone too FAR to turn back’ and many others.  LIES, LIES, LIES!  Jesus offered both thieves on the cross eternal life with Him.  One received and one didn’t.  ALL we must do is CHOOSE.

Satan knows as God knows our burdens will be lifted and our lives will be joined with God.  Satan desires us to be separated forever, not because of us but because he wants to hurt God who is pained by our decisions to remain separate.  He desires us to be in union with Him eternally and to experience the grief and pain relieving joy of HIS FULLNESS.  Those who are seeking Hope, will find it.  Those who are seeking completeness, will find it. Those who need restoration, will find it.

Jesus calls us….COME HOME!  I will give you rest.


Wherever you are, whatever you’ve done….You are always accepted!  Believe and turn to the Only One who can bring you in complete harmony with God your Creator.